Thursday, January 3, 2013

The Transformation: Preface



Happy New Year!!!

God bless each and every one of us who are here for 2013. There are countless people who did not get to see this beautiful New Year. Whether by tragedy, accident, or illness, they are not here today. Many are resting comfortably in a better place now. I personally know at least one woman and one man who have earned their seats in heaven and will forever look down on all those they knew and loved. Rest in Peace to each person who was taken from this world too soon and for each individual who fought the good fight living life abundantly.

I begin my first post of the New Year with a great sense of gratitude. God didn’t have to see me through 2012. Reflecting back, He didn’t even have to bring me through 2001 when I had given up on myself. Nor did He have to bring me through 2008 when I was in a car accident in which I totaled my vehicle and walked away without a scratch. I have a heart filled with joy simply because I’m alive. The people that have passed before us and gone home can no longer walk this journey of life physically. But the footprints they left help show us how to move forward. They want us to move forward. They want us to continue their work or start our own with a purpose. We have the opportunity to live today should we not see tomorrow. It is no mistake that I’m here today with work to do. My life has been spared enough times for me to know that He’s not through with me yet!

After returning from Barcelona in October I decided I wanted to put my mind and body through a full transformation. At the time I said it would be my birthday gift to myself for October 2013. I would give myself a year to work on me, in all areas, and then celebrate my accomplishments on my birthday. I did exceptionally well throughout the month of October, but as the holidays approached I fell short of consistency. I entertained writing about my experience for readers to follow. It was such a spontaneous decision; I wasn’t even sure I could do it. Failing publicly would have been worse for me than failing privately.  Today I am relieved that I chose not to document my venture because sadly I did not follow through. However, I am also disappointed in that choice because I set myself up for failure from the very beginning by possessing a significant amount of self-doubt. I was so worried about failing I gave myself no room to focus on succeeding.

I now sit here with the same desires I had over three months ago. My feelings about them are even stronger now than they were before. Several people have asked me why I want to lose weight when I already look good just as I am. People also assume I eat healthy just because I’m gluten intolerant. Though both opinions can be taken as a compliment, the only opinion that matters is mine. One of the biggest reasons I want to change my physique is to benefit my health. Since turning 30, I have become more aware of how important it is to take care of this precious gift I have – my body. Although I have no ailments or life-threatening diseases, I want to do my very best to prevent any future conditions from arising. My greatest weapons to fight off such conditions are a strong and healthy body and a faithful and positive mind. I envision my body changing physically. I picture myself working hard, exercising daily and eating well. In addition to improving my physical health, I also see myself learning more and reading more thought-provoking books. I have so many visions of where I want to be, who I want to be, how I want to look, how I want to feel, and how I will achieve it all. None of those aspirations have disappeared. Hope remains in my heart that I will fulfill each ambitious goal. Despite the number of times I have fallen by conceding to failure, I do know I can always get back up again. So I will start over and take it from the top with relentless confidence, unbreakable focus, and unwavering faith.

If you desire, join me over the next year as I take myself through a mental and physical transformation. Every month I will post an entry with my progress update. Yes, I am claiming my progress before I even start. If I think I will fail then sure enough, I will fail. If I focus on success then my accomplishments have already been achieved. The only thing left to do is watch it happen. The journey I’m about to take is not just for me. It is for all those before me that were taken too soon, those that fought the good fight, and those of us who are trying to find the fight within ourselves. Along the way I hope to inspire and encourage others to also transform any area of their lives that they decide needs altering. Change is necessary for growth.  If you always do what you’ve always done, then you’ll always get what you’ve always gotten. Those were words shared to me by one of my high school teachers. Nearly two decades later, I still use them as a compass for my life.

Living life to its fullest – because I can!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Year-End Reflections




2012, where did you go? This time last year I was helping Douglas pack his bags for MSG (Marine Security Guard) School. Excited, nervous, and anxious about the unknown, we prepared for his departure on New Year’s Day. For the next two months I practically sat on pins and needles waiting to receive confirmation that he passed the school. That confirmation would determine the next three years of our lives. Would we remain in the fleet stateside or would we relocate overseas and join an MSG detachment? We were pulling for the latter, but either way change was brewing for the Hardee family.

Finally, the highly anticipated day had arrived. February 24th Douglas graduated from MSG School as a brand new Detachment Commander. He changed jobs and I resigned from mine; both were bittersweet transitions. Our new journey was about to take off full speed. In less than 30 days we packed up our home, said our good-byes, and found ourselves in the Savannah Airport waiting to board a flight that would carry us across the world to Algiers, Algeria in North Africa.

This wasn’t exactly the type of country we hand in mind for our tour overseas. We pictured something a bit more glamorous, or rather a glamorous picture was painted for us. I remember going through an emotional rollercoaster, uneasy about how I would adjust to such a severe change in lifestyle. For a while I put on the strong face. You know that face and attitude that says, “I can do anything. I got this!” Well, a couple weeks before we left I had my breakdown. The breakdown that makes you question everything and wonder whether or not you can actually do this. Thankfully my dear husband and wonderful friend who was a seasoned Marine Corps spouse told me I could do this. Now I find myself thanking God every day because I am doing this and doing it well!

As of December 25th, we have been in Algeria for nine months. In that short time we have traveled to different countries (Italy, Germany, and Spain) that otherwise would have been unrealistic to ever be able to visit. We have ventured throughout this country and have seen parts of the world that many never knew existed. We have expanded our perception of reality. We have adjusted to a dramatically different environment. We have embraced our exposure to a new culture and their way of living. We have a new understanding of the difference between necessities and luxuries. We have discovered hidden strengths and talents within ourselves. We have developed a stronger sense of love and respect for one another. We have welcomed change and the unknown. And we have done all these things together with optimistic minds and faithful hearts.

Each experience I’ve gone through since landing in Algeria has contributed to my renewed outlook on life and possibility. I started this journey with the intention of tapping into my purpose in this world. We all have one. In Algiers I have learned that my purpose goes beyond my abilities. Just because I can do a job well doesn’t mean that is the job I am supposed to be doing. I can happily say that in only nine months I’ve learned more about myself and my purpose in life than I ever did before. I’m even happier to say that I have barely scratched the surface of what I will learn and am capable of doing.  

I have great hope for the future. No matter where I land or if I may fall, this past year has taught me that regardless of my environment or circumstances, I can create greatness. Thank you 2012 for reminding me that with unwavering faith there is nothing I cannot do. I remain optimistic for the experiences that lie ahead in 2013. I don’t look toward the new year for what it will give me. I’m going into the new year with intentions of what I will bring to it, all the while leaving plenty of room to continually embrace new opportunities, learn more lessons, and take full advantage of God’s many blessings. Living life on the edge, not afraid of where I may fall.

Wishing my family, friends, and all my blog followers a new year that will knock you off your feet!

Au revoir, 2012!


Monday, December 31, 2012

Christmas in Algiers: Brunch Anyone?


Surrounded by an array of Christmas décor; seeing homes lit with Santa and his reindeer propped up on the front lawn; driving through the park to view the Festival of Lights; picking out the perfect tree; waking early for door buster holiday bargains; employees with red hats; stockings on the walls; Christmas caroling outside the front door; wrapping boxes filled with Christmas gifts; listening to various holiday tunes; watching Christmas movies; attending holiday parties, concerts, and church services; children excited about Santa visiting their homes; family and friends visiting for the holidays...all things that remind you it’s Christmas time! These are also the things we missed this holiday season, but as always, we made the most of it and brought our holiday spirit to Algiers.

Just as it was for Thanksgiving, we shared Christmas Day with the Marines and my friend Nicole. Instead of cooking dinner this time, we decided to have a Christmas brunch. I thought it would be a nice way to start the morning off. We could then have the late afternoon and evening to relax. Also, I figured it would be way less work than preparing a big dinner. I was completely wrong about that last assumption.

A couple of weeks prior I explored my recipe binder for brunch ideas. One of the challenges with breakfast dishes is timing. Most great breakfast dishes are best served fresh and hot. No one wants reheated eggs, potatoes, and meat; although I’m positive our guests would have eaten it regardless. An ideal dish was a casserole. After a little searching, I found a great Country Breakfast Casserole recipe. I would cook that, grits with cheese, and biscuits. I debated about doing a French toast casserole to have something sweet, but the more and more I thought about it, I knew the perfect sweet to end the meal would be Cinnamon Rolls. Plus, I’d been craving Cinnamon Rolls for the past few months. My brunch menu was set. It would be a breeze, or so I thought.

Is it true that no holiday overseas is complete without a snafu or two? If so, then ours started off just right. Two days before Christmas, Douglas noticed our drinks from the refrigerator were not as cold as they are usually.  At first we thought the temperature needed to be adjusted. But by that night we both concluded our fridge was not working properly. The timing couldn’t have been worse! Since Christmas Eve was declared a holiday the embassy would be closed and no one would be available to fix or replace our refrigerator until after Christmas. This would not have been an inconvenience if we weren’t having Christmas brunch at our place. Ugh! Fortunately the Marine House is very close. They have four refrigerators with plenty of room to spare.

On Christmas Eve I found myself in the kitchen around 10:00 a.m. with a list of everything that needed to be prepped. Once complete I carried those items to the Marine House.  Preparation in cooking (and life in general) truly does set a person up for success. First I began scrubbing the dirt off of approximately twenty potatoes. Thankfully Douglas volunteered to help with this part. He washed the potatoes while I peeled them. Then he sat down at the kitchen table and shredded each potato that would later become hash browns. He did this while watching sports on TV, of course. I might not have been able to listen to music as I usually do while in the kitchen, but that was easy to sacrifice for his much needed assistance. The potatoes here hold a tremendous amount of liquid. Actually, almost all the vegetables are that way. When we tried to make Hash Browns a few days before, they came out very mushy. Douglas realized he needed to squeeze all the liquid out of them first to prevent the soggy texture.  Douglas wringed them out with his hand, and then patted them dry with paper towels. The entire process took about two hours.

Meanwhile, I gathered my ingredients to make cinnamon rolls. Since I eat gluten-free and so does my friend Nicole, I also made a batch of gluten-free cinnamon rolls. This meant more labor, but it would be well worth it. I prepared the regular cinnamon rolls the day prior so they could sit in the fridge overnight. Doing so apparently gives the dough a refined texture when baked the next day. As for the gluten-free cinnamon rolls, I saved those for Christmas morning. Gluten-free baked goods do not often taste as great the next day. I didn’t want to take any chances.

Making cinnamon rolls were not as hard as I thought. The dough was extremely pliable for stretching out and rolling. However, the gluten-free dough was completely opposite. It was exceedingly sticky and difficult to roll into a cylinder shape. Below are a few pictures of the fun and at times messy process. 

Douglas caught a pic of me kneading the dough

Dough set aside for 3 hrs. It rose pretty well.

Regular dough rolled out - nice & smooth

Regular dough covered with Cinnamon/sugar filling

easy roll, mess free

gluten-free dough rolled on wax paper covered with rice flour

Gluten-free dough. Had to use additional flour to prevent sticking

Messy, messy - flour was everywhere


Regular rolls cut up and set aside to rise

GF rolls covered with plastic to rise & Regular rolls after being proofed in the oven

While the dough was rising for 2 ½ hours, I assembled the ingredients to make biscuits. Just as I did with the cinnamon rolls, I made both regular and gluten free biscuits. Again, more labor, but well worth it! Since I’ve made biscuits several times before, I was able to move fairly quickly through this step. I wrapped all the biscuits in saran wrap and set them aside for refrigeration. The gluten-free biscuits did not call for regular milk like the normal biscuits. They instead called for heavy whipping cream and half and half. In the states I could have walked into the grocery store, gone to the cold section and grabbed a container of both heavy whipping cream and half and half off the shelf. Not in Algiers! The only thing they had on the shelf was whipping cream. Would you believe the whipping cream cost 720 dinar, equal to over $9.00? Yes, it was way more expensive than in the states! Even though it was not the “heavy” kind, I used it anyway. As for the half and half, I did a Google search on how to make your own. It was extremely easy. I just mixed regular milk with the whipping cream and there was my half and half. By the time I finished making both types of biscuits, washed and dried the dirty dishes, nearly three hours had passed. Did I forget to mention we do not have a dishwasher? That is one item I no longer believe to be a luxury for someone who cooks every day. It’s a necessity!

Next on my prep list was the meat. I planned to make two casserole dishes. Neither Nicole nor I favor red meat, so I made one with beef and one with turkey. I couldn’t seem to avoid the additional labor, but as always, it was well worth it! If we were in the states this step would have been eliminated. I would have bought my favorite pre-cooked and packaged sausage for this dish. But we are in Algiers, which means no packaged sausage for us. We have seen one type of sausage here that can't even be described as edible. During a random conversation with Nicole, she mentioned that I could make my own sausage. Doing this never crossed my mind. I guess because I simply went without since it wasn’t available.  After she said this to me I began looking up recipes for breakfast sausage. I found three good recipes and combined them to make one great recipe. I did a test batch a couple weeks prior to ensure it was to our liking. I was in awe. They came out sweet, savory and full of taste! Initially I thought they would have tasted more like burger patties, but the spices made all the difference. I seasoned both the ground turkey and beef with that special blend of seasoning. Using every bit of meat I made several round sausage patties. I covered them in saran wrap, placed them in a ziploc bag and set them aside to also be refrigerated.

Next up were the onions. Thankfully the casserole only called for one green onion. I cleaned and chopped those scallions in what seemed like seconds compared to everything else I just did. Then it was time for the cheese. The recipe called for two cups of shredded cheese. If we were in the states this step would have been omitted all together. I would have gone to the store and purchased a large bag of Kraft shredded cheese and kept it movin’! Instead, I was in the kitchen shredding blocks of cheese on my grater. Sure it was fresher, but I cannot honestly say it was worth it. I shredded enough for both casseroles and for the grits. I placed the pounds of cheese into separate ziploc bags for each dish and set them aside with everything else.

The very last thing I had to do for brunch prep was the country gravy mix. Once again, if I were in the states I could have purchased a packet of both regular and gluten-free country gravy mix. Not in Algiers. I did a Google search on how to make your own country gravy mix. There is truly a way to make pretty much anything that can be purchased in the store. I pulled out some flour, dry milk powder, salt, pepper, and onion powder, mixed all those ingredients and placed them in a ziploc bag. Voila! I now had my own country gravy mix for the casseroles and plenty to spare.

Although I was all done with my brunch prep, I came up with the bright idea to prepare an easy meal for dinner. I knew I would not feel like standing up in the kitchen that evening to cook anything. I decided to do a one-pot dish – oven roasted chicken with potatoes and carrots. Of course that meant more labor at the moment. I peeled, cleaned, and cut my potatoes and carrots. I sliced an onion or two and laid everything out on a cookie sheet to season. Then I placed the mixture into a large ziploc bag and mixed well. Next I cleaned my chicken, picking off missed feathers that had not been plucked. Clearly another step I would have skipped had I been in the states. I then seasoned my chicken, rubbed it down with olive oil and also placed it in a ziploc bag. I do wish I took a picture, but I think this a pretty accurate description of what the final prepped product looked like.

By this time it was nearly 4:30 p.m. I could not believe I’d spent over six hours in the kitchen and didn’t even cook anything. I don’t think I did this much prep for Thanksgiving dinner. I quickly cleaned the kitchen, swept the floor, and packed everything in cold bags to be taken over to the Marine House. After taking a shower and getting dressed I had about five minutes to spare before a car was waiting outside to drive me to a small holiday gathering at a friend’s home. My body was exhausted from standing. The sofa was calling my name loudly. I ignored that voice and went ahead to socialize with friends, although I’m pretty sure my body didn’t feel it was well worth it at all.

It was almost midnight when I returned. I may have felt drained of energy but I had a great time. I was ready to hit the sack! Before going home I met Douglas at the Marine House to grab the cream cheese so that it would be room temperature for the morning. I was making a cream cheese frosting for the cinnamon rolls. Yum! When Douglas and I walked into our home, we were unpleasantly greeted by the stale aroma permeating throughout the house. Our refrigerator was now completely out. The very last thing I thought I would be doing at midnight on Christmas Eve was emptying and cleaning our entire refrigerator. We collected as many bags as I could find, cleared the fridge, and hauled the items to the Marine House. If their four refrigerators were not put to good use before, they surely would be now. Douglas then pulled up a chair and attacked the fridge with plenty of Clorox to rid it of the rotten smell. Finally at 2:00 a.m., we called it a night. Going to bed would have felt great if I didn’t need to wake up three hours later to cook everything. Merry Christmas to us!

I awoke to the sound of my alarm going off at 5:30 a.m. It felt like I never went to sleep. I could have laid in that bed for at least three more hours. I sprang out the bed only by the adrenaline rush of excitement to start the day. After all, it was Christmas morning! Douglas and I threw on some clothes to go to the Marine House and gotour food out of the refrigerator. I started working in the kitchen around 6:00 a.m. I pride myself on planning well. Our guests were scheduled to arrive at 10:30 a.m. Shortly after that time all the food was done. Brunch was served piping hot. Everyone helped themselves to seconds, which was a sign that everything was to their liking. That was all the satisfaction I needed. 

Bottom layer of casserole - homemade sausage patties

Next layer covered with onion, cheese, and homemade gravy mixture

Cooking a batch of the hash browns

Now that's what I call a perfect flip. Nice!

Country Breakfast casserole topped with hash browns - the potatoes turned brown in the fridge since they were shredded the day before. Not golden brown, but still delicious!

Grits and Cheese

Regular and gluten free biscuits

Cinnamon Rolls fresh out of the oven

Covered with cream cheese frosting

The Marines told us the brunch was an excellent Christmas gift for them. We hadn’t planned it that way though. The guys were pleasantly surprised when we handed them bags from under our Christmas tree. They didn’t expect anything else. I absolutely love surprising people. Needless to say I was a happy girl in that moment. They opened their gifts and loved them! Again, I wish I took a picture. Tervis Tumblers can put a smile on nearly anyone’s face. The cups make for terrific gifts.

After eating brunch and devouring those delectable cinnamon rolls, we pulled out the games and played a couple rounds of Taboo. It’s a perfect game to play with company, especially when you have competitive guests as we did. Most of my predictions for Christmas Brunch were correct; it was a great way to start the morning off, and we did have the late afternoon and evening to relax. I was 100% wrong about the preparation though. It was the same amount, if not more than preparing a holiday dinner. Regardless, I wouldn’t have changed a thing. It was undoubtedly well worth it all! Everyone had a fantastic time. 

Nothing feels better to me than bringing a smile to someone else’s face. We may not have been surrounded by Christmas reminders as we’re accustomed to in the states, but Douglas and I were more than satisfied with our Christmas experience in Algiers. It was unforgettable!